Being a father does not always look or feel good, always being the one who makes decisions nobody likes or understands. You really never get use to it you just bare with it for the sake of holding down the family. You have to always have them no matter what. That means even in a Pandemic or total Racial Upheaval. We must be Dad no matter what!!, even if they leave you or curse you God will bless your work as long as you followed his plan because he got you. He will be with you at all times. Fruit don't just grow on trees.